Okay, when I finally got around to going to bed, my brain decided that me getting any sleep whatsoever was so not going to happen. About a half hour after I fell asleep, I woke up convinced that there were cockroaches in my comforter that were starting to come out. Just a reminder that I have exactly one phobia, that gives me full-on panic attacks when activated, and that phobia is cockroaches. Well, after waking up thinking my phobia was coming out of the blanket currently covering me, I had a hard time falling back to sleep. And it happened at least two or three more times in the few hours I was in bed. So yay there... not. I think what happened was that I was dreaming in a doze, and couldn't tell the difference between dream and reality. I used to have that happen to me all the time when I was a kid. But no matter what, fuck that noise. That was the worst not-exactly-night-of-sleep I have had in a damn long time.
So I ended up rescheduling my optometrist's appointment for Monday. Cuz I really didn't think I could focus on the letters to tell the difference between one or two, one or two, one or two, two or three.
I'm thinking sleeping pill tonight. Cuz I would love to get some sleep for once. Gyah.........
Friday, June 12, 2015
Sleep? What's That?
It's past 6am, I have an optometrist's appointment in a little over nine hours, and I haven't been to bed yet. I'm sure, if I could've peeled myself away from the computer back around 2am or so, I could've easily fallen asleep so where I could actually keep my eyes open during the entire appointment. But noooooooo, my stupid procrastination instinct kicked in, and I just had to do... whatever it was that I've been doing these past few hours. I'm so tired, I can't even remember what all I did. But am I going to bed like a normal person? Noooooo, I'm writing a blog post. Gyah!
But yeah, my stomach is killing me, my head is killing me, and I'm a little afraid that if I go into that bedroom, that I won't be able to fall asleep in the first place. Because that's how it's been for me lately. Stupid brain, being too anxious or whatever to get some damn rest already.
Well, maybe I'll just write for a bit. Maybe then I'll get sleepy enough to actually get sleep.
I went to a park with my friend Felix last weekend, and we took a fuck ton of awesome pictures. His were obviously way better than mine, because his camera is a professional grade number, while mine is a cheap digital camera from Walmart that's almost 7 years old, but a lot of mine turned out pretty nice, too. I'm contemplating getting this one printed out, putting it in a frame, and hanging it on the wall.
Not exactly sure why I think it's the prettiest of the bunch, but it was my favorite. I'm thinking a thick, dark wood frame. Something to make all the green stand out more. I haven't put one of my own photos in a frame in years. It'll be nice to have a pretty picture on the wall, and know that I made that pretty picture, you know? I can't draw worth a damn, I still haven't used my watercolor kit from Christmas '13, but dammit, I can take nice photos. That makes me feel a little better about having not finished any of my stories that I've been working on for forever...
I skipped my therapy appointment on Wednesday because of these weird stabbing pains in my stomach (and also because I hadn't slept yet even though it was almost 9am when I called to reschedule). I still haven't made the new appointment, but I'm going to try and call her back today to get a new one. As for my stomach, it hurt like hell for a few hours, then lightened up. I thought it was maybe appendicitis, but when I looked up the symptoms, it said you'd have a high fever, and I didn't have one at all, so I'm guessing it wasn't my appendix bursting. Felt like it for a bit, though. *shrugs*
I think I will attempt that sleep thing now. Though tomorrow, I need to write about the Deadpool-off me and my friend Aaron had earlier. I made a comment about Deadpool in an IM on Facebook, and he responded with a Deadpool pic, so I of course had to respond back likewise. I have a mess load of pics saved on my computer of Deadpool and his wacky antics, and I just looooooove showing them off. It went on for quite a few pictures. Bwahahahaha! But yes, about that sleep...
But yeah, my stomach is killing me, my head is killing me, and I'm a little afraid that if I go into that bedroom, that I won't be able to fall asleep in the first place. Because that's how it's been for me lately. Stupid brain, being too anxious or whatever to get some damn rest already.
Well, maybe I'll just write for a bit. Maybe then I'll get sleepy enough to actually get sleep.
I went to a park with my friend Felix last weekend, and we took a fuck ton of awesome pictures. His were obviously way better than mine, because his camera is a professional grade number, while mine is a cheap digital camera from Walmart that's almost 7 years old, but a lot of mine turned out pretty nice, too. I'm contemplating getting this one printed out, putting it in a frame, and hanging it on the wall.
Not exactly sure why I think it's the prettiest of the bunch, but it was my favorite. I'm thinking a thick, dark wood frame. Something to make all the green stand out more. I haven't put one of my own photos in a frame in years. It'll be nice to have a pretty picture on the wall, and know that I made that pretty picture, you know? I can't draw worth a damn, I still haven't used my watercolor kit from Christmas '13, but dammit, I can take nice photos. That makes me feel a little better about having not finished any of my stories that I've been working on for forever...
I skipped my therapy appointment on Wednesday because of these weird stabbing pains in my stomach (and also because I hadn't slept yet even though it was almost 9am when I called to reschedule). I still haven't made the new appointment, but I'm going to try and call her back today to get a new one. As for my stomach, it hurt like hell for a few hours, then lightened up. I thought it was maybe appendicitis, but when I looked up the symptoms, it said you'd have a high fever, and I didn't have one at all, so I'm guessing it wasn't my appendix bursting. Felt like it for a bit, though. *shrugs*
I think I will attempt that sleep thing now. Though tomorrow, I need to write about the Deadpool-off me and my friend Aaron had earlier. I made a comment about Deadpool in an IM on Facebook, and he responded with a Deadpool pic, so I of course had to respond back likewise. I have a mess load of pics saved on my computer of Deadpool and his wacky antics, and I just looooooove showing them off. It went on for quite a few pictures. Bwahahahaha! But yes, about that sleep...
Thursday, June 11, 2015
I Guess I Do Still Have A Blog, Huh?
March 11th... That was the date of my last post here. Exactly three months ago. Probably oughta start updating this thing again. I'm bad like that, though. Forget about some hobbies while I obsess over others, then shout "Change seats!" like the Mad Hatter, and switch around my obsession/forgotten roster. Not sure why I do that, but it's been like that for me since I was a little kid. Let's see if I can shove blogging into its own more permanent seat and make it stick this time.
I think one of the reasons I avoid this thing is because, when I go a reeeeeally long time between posts, a fuck ton of stuff happens, and I feel obligated to talk about everything ever, so the longer I go without updating, the more crap I hafta write about (according to my stupid brain, at least). So I'm gonna try just putting in smaller updates, spread out a bit (but not three months spread out). Let's see if that works, okay?
Well, the big thing on my mind right now is moving. The lease we have on this apartment ends on the 30th of this month, and there is no way in hell I'm staying here another year (seeing as how it is hell, I'm not sure if that phrasing works or not, but oh well). I think we may have found a place near downtown that we can get and afford, but we can't be 100% until we put in the deposit on the 18th. One week. I can handle one week, right? *screams and tears out hair* Okay, maybe not, but I don't have much of a choice.
It's a duplex in this little almost-dead-end street (we'd be about a half a block away from the actual dead end, with a cross street separating us), and the neighborhood seems kind of quiet. It's near a few big buildings that might be factories, or maybe just warehouses, since there's no smoke belching out or anything. It's a two bedroom, one bathroom number, that's a bit small but it's the best we can afford, so it'll do. And it has washer/dryer hookups, and that was the main thing we were looking for, so woohoo! I just hope we get it. It looks fairly likely, but as I said, we won't be 100% until we pay the deposit. Keep your fingers crossed?
Been reading like mad crazy lately. Joined a challenge group on GoodReads, and it's got me reading regular books a lot more than I was there for a bit (I went through quite a few weeks where the only books I finished were manga). I've also narrowed down the books I have checked out from the library, so I've been able to read some of my own lately. Finally got around to reading One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest and Beastly, for example. Both really freaking great books, but damn was Cuckoo's Nest exhausting to read. Still adored it, though.
I've kinda been lacking energy lately, so the apartment is rather messy. I'm trying so hard to get up and do things, but sometimes I'm so tired that even holding my book up while reading wears me out. I think it's depression mixed with sleep deprivation. No matter how long I stay in bed, I wake up feeling like I got no rest whatsoever. Ugh! I see my new doctor again on Tuesday. She told me last time I was there that I needed to get some blood tests and some x-rays done, but she never gave me any paperwork or instructions, so I guess she'll actually have to schedule them this time. Here's hoping. I would really love to know for certain if this is actually fibromyalgia or not. Mind you, I have pretty much all the symptoms, plus my mom has it so yay genetics, but for all I know I could just have half a dozen other things that just mimic fibromyalgia, so lots and lots and lots of tests in my near future. Yay........ >_<
I was doing an intro to philosophy class over on Coursera, but I stopped doing it for awhile. I think I need to fix that asap. It was so freaking interesting. And I have a huuuuuge list of classes I wanna take after this one, too (I only do the on-demand classes so that I can take my time without getting behind). So many things on my to-do list lately, and I'm doing almost none of them. Yep, definitely need to get me some energy.
That seems like enough for now, right? I'm going to try extra hard to start updating this thing on a regular basis again. I think I kinda miss blogging, now that I think of it.
I think one of the reasons I avoid this thing is because, when I go a reeeeeally long time between posts, a fuck ton of stuff happens, and I feel obligated to talk about everything ever, so the longer I go without updating, the more crap I hafta write about (according to my stupid brain, at least). So I'm gonna try just putting in smaller updates, spread out a bit (but not three months spread out). Let's see if that works, okay?
Well, the big thing on my mind right now is moving. The lease we have on this apartment ends on the 30th of this month, and there is no way in hell I'm staying here another year (seeing as how it is hell, I'm not sure if that phrasing works or not, but oh well). I think we may have found a place near downtown that we can get and afford, but we can't be 100% until we put in the deposit on the 18th. One week. I can handle one week, right? *screams and tears out hair* Okay, maybe not, but I don't have much of a choice.
It's a duplex in this little almost-dead-end street (we'd be about a half a block away from the actual dead end, with a cross street separating us), and the neighborhood seems kind of quiet. It's near a few big buildings that might be factories, or maybe just warehouses, since there's no smoke belching out or anything. It's a two bedroom, one bathroom number, that's a bit small but it's the best we can afford, so it'll do. And it has washer/dryer hookups, and that was the main thing we were looking for, so woohoo! I just hope we get it. It looks fairly likely, but as I said, we won't be 100% until we pay the deposit. Keep your fingers crossed?
Been reading like mad crazy lately. Joined a challenge group on GoodReads, and it's got me reading regular books a lot more than I was there for a bit (I went through quite a few weeks where the only books I finished were manga). I've also narrowed down the books I have checked out from the library, so I've been able to read some of my own lately. Finally got around to reading One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest and Beastly, for example. Both really freaking great books, but damn was Cuckoo's Nest exhausting to read. Still adored it, though.
I've kinda been lacking energy lately, so the apartment is rather messy. I'm trying so hard to get up and do things, but sometimes I'm so tired that even holding my book up while reading wears me out. I think it's depression mixed with sleep deprivation. No matter how long I stay in bed, I wake up feeling like I got no rest whatsoever. Ugh! I see my new doctor again on Tuesday. She told me last time I was there that I needed to get some blood tests and some x-rays done, but she never gave me any paperwork or instructions, so I guess she'll actually have to schedule them this time. Here's hoping. I would really love to know for certain if this is actually fibromyalgia or not. Mind you, I have pretty much all the symptoms, plus my mom has it so yay genetics, but for all I know I could just have half a dozen other things that just mimic fibromyalgia, so lots and lots and lots of tests in my near future. Yay........ >_<
I was doing an intro to philosophy class over on Coursera, but I stopped doing it for awhile. I think I need to fix that asap. It was so freaking interesting. And I have a huuuuuge list of classes I wanna take after this one, too (I only do the on-demand classes so that I can take my time without getting behind). So many things on my to-do list lately, and I'm doing almost none of them. Yep, definitely need to get me some energy.
That seems like enough for now, right? I'm going to try extra hard to start updating this thing on a regular basis again. I think I kinda miss blogging, now that I think of it.
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